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hi guys :)

happy new semester!

I miss you all! I miss boba nights and movie nights. and hanging out at dor’s. and milk tea.

Dor, I wish I could come with Jen & Steph when they visit next weekend! however, that’s the weekend I’m flying up to visit Geo, so I won’t be able to gooo :(. dangit. really wish I could though. 

Kim, dangit I missed out hanging out with you too! stupid article. anyways good luck on the new semester!! do well, work hard, enjoy learning & creating your art :)

Shannon, I love the layers! I miss you so much too. your waitressing job sounds like a tough challenge, but I know you can do it! 

Jen, I don’t know how you get up every morning at 5am, it’s crazy. I love living with you and talking with you about our lives and about our future plans after college! 

dang this semester is so much busier. I’m actually on staff at the Clause now, so I constantly have an article to be working on or someone to interview, etc. :/ but I do enjoy it. but sometimes it sucks a little bit :P

I’ll need to turn in my application for the Washington D.C. Journalism study abroad program soon. I really hope I get in for next Fall; if I do, I also just realized recently that I’ll be in D.C. for the presidential election!! for my first time voting too! WAY cool.

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hi guys!

6.06.11

I feel like we haven’t all talked in a while. boo on skype for not allowing free group video calls. hope everybody is doing ok! 

summer has been pretty good. Shannon & I have been chilling together quite a bit. running errands together.. LOL. other than her, I only hang out with Kevin, Benson, Chris & Geo. nobody else is backk. it’s always the boys plus me, and if I’m lucky, shannon! we just watch a lot of movies. and go out to lunch and stuff. 

BY THE WAY, I think I forgot to mention this, but Geo & I decided to make things ~official~ when summer started. Idk why I didn’t tell you guys, but I guess cuz it didn’t really make a difference to me, it was just putting a title on it. but just so you guys know.. if you didn’t already!

Jen I hope you are having a great time with your job and your family and pets and new beautiful home :) and all the skyping with Jmoon haha. can’t wait to see you & Dor this week!

& Dor I hope you are remembering personal hygiene and that you should get enough sleep and food during your finals week! YOU CAN DO IT, no problem! :)

Kim I worry about you sometimes but I know you’ll be ok! just know that we miss you and care about you a lot and can’t wait to see you when you come back in August <3 

Shannon.. thanks for getting me out of my house today by taking me to Fremont Hub hahahaha. pbb see you tmrw!

xx Annie

edit: wait! Dor you’re finished with finals? CONGRATS! :)

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dear Dor,

you have no idea how EXCITED I am right now !!!!!!!!!!!!

hehe :) sorry. I’m calm. LOL :)

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I miss everybody from back home so much.

disclaimer: this is super long, sorry girls :(

never in my life have I had to deal with insecurity about my friends. I’ve never had to wonder if they like me, or if they’re talking about me behind my back. I’ve never been kicked out or left out of something by people I thought were my friends. even if we’re not close, that’s still rude. I guess I took for granted the friends I had before. nobody would ever do anything hurtful to me and I trust everybody so much.

example. I never talked to Kim before senior year, and not much during the beginning either. but you know what? I trust you completely and I know you would listen to me if I needed you to, and you wouldn’t leave me feeling kicked out or hurt over anything.

here’s the story if you guys want to know. oh, housing drama.

basically, we had a group of 5 girls: me, Jen, Danielle, Darlene, & Bri. we were all gonna live together in a 2-bedroom, but our housing ticket numbers are too low so we had to split up into 2 one-bedrooms. Jen & I both thought that we would triple with Danielle, because she told us earlier in the year that she would if we ever had to split up, and that Darlene & Bri would room together. then, Tuesday night (the night before we were gonna sign up for housing), they announce to me that Bri doesn’t think she will be coming back, and that Darlene & Danielle are going to triple with Jen together, because they’re not as close with me.

in my head, I was just like. so… they’re kicking me out? I have nobody to live with next year? gee thanks, guys. super last minute too, I’d have to find somebody THAT night to live with for the next year or else I’d be put in a random room. but that night I found two girls on my hall that needed a triple, so I made plans to live with them. and actually it was all fine, I wasn’t mad or upset or anything. I knew that Danielle & Darlene weren’t close with me, but with the other two girls it would be a fresh start with people who don’t have judgments about me in their heads already. it was almost a relief, actually.

and then! they said nevermind, Bri is staying. so it’s back to us 5 splitting into 2 rooms. then apparently, Danielle was gonna triple with Darlene & Bri, which left Jen & I looking for a triple (it’s a lot cheaper if you triple). in the end we found a triple roomie; it’s a bit complicated, but basically we had to wait till much later to sign up and stressed out about it a lot because we wanted 2 rooms right next to each other. but you know what? the whole thing could have been solved if Danielle had just tripled with us instead; b/c of her housing ticket number, we could have all signed up much earlier. but she quite obviously didn’t want to be living with me.

so many people have told me that I’m super nice, friendly, etc. there’s no way I’d ever have problems making friends. …right. I don’t know. I just miss everybody from back home, who knew who I was as a person and wouldn’t judge me for one little mistake or thing I do wrong. you guys would just tell me if you had an issue with me, then we’d still love each other and be over with it after. I feel like I’ll never be super close with these girls because I know that they’re like this. they only thought about what they wanted and didn’t think how I’d feel. they look at me like “a problem,” someone they don’t want to be “stuck” living with. 

I miss you guys. I miss my real friends. the ones who won’t let one little thing severe a chance of a friendship, who love and accept each other despite any flaws or anything they might not like about each other. the true friends who I can relax around and just be myself and not have to watch what I say or do. I loved Amy’s post about loving others - sure, person A is selfish, person B is gossipy, etc etc. who cares? love them anyway.

plus they all have Tumblrs so I can’t post this on my normal blog. damn. because I miss EVERYBODY, and Tumblr used to be a way to let everybody know what we’re all up to. sigh. I posted earlier about how happy I was that housing worked out, and I meant it. this is just the other side of it, haha. 

I’m so glad I have Jen here with me though. I think she’s my only real, true and good friend here. she’s mature enough to not let trivial issues come between us and break our friendship, she’s empathetic, actually cares about me and how I feel, and I know I can trust and depend on her. what would I do without her? <3

p.s. have I mentioned how much I miss you guys?! ugh. :(

I just want to sit around a table with boba drinks and talk to you guys over delicious food and just bond and talk like the good old days. and give you all hugs. and relish just being in the company of real friends.

edit: this was kind of a rant, so I just want to say that I do love them though, if that makes sense. I do want to be good friends with them, but I kinda had to let this part out haha. twice because I just did this with Jen earlier. I make them sound like bad people but they’re not, they’re really chill and cool. I’d be a hypocrite if I decided I’ll never be friends with them because of this. so I’m not holding a grudge or anything. but I do miss you guys a lot. 

a lot. <3

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